Tuesday, June 06, 2006


6/6/06 was either one of the best days or the worst days of my life. I caught my ex-boyfriend doing some horrible things. Although I'd ended it 6 months previously, I had let him stay these last 6 months. Now I wish I hadn't!

Perhaps some day I will share, but for now I am thankful for my family and friends who know me, love me, and care about me. With any luck, I will never see or hear from him again. I don't say this out of spite. I say it because even the thought of him nauseates me.

I am now resigned to it. The good news is that I know now what has been wrong and I can move on in my life without him.

So was this the best day or the worst day? Being a positive person, I am hoping it's the beginning of the rest of my life, which has been stagnant for many years because of him.

P.S. I'll say this much: when you sense something wrong or odd about someone, go with your gut instinct. I wish I'd gone with mine years ago, instead of dismissing it. Perhaps this is a lesson to us all.


Tai said...

If you can take away something postive from this, then I think you'll do okay in the long run.

Cheers to you.

Brianne said...

I always try to stay on the positive side of things. Be glad that you finally found out that he was ____(?)_____. It's such a difficult thing, at the end of a relationship, but it can feel good if you keep the right attitude.

And, how ironic, with the 6-6-06 thing, right?

I'm sorry. Keep your head up and keep smilling because you never know when someone knew will fall in love with it.

Miss Cellania said...

I am sorry. Its painful, but new birth is always painful. There's a lot of people around who care about you, and freedom in front of you. (((hugs)))

Nihilistic said...

I'm way too nosey for posts like this! :) Anyway...It was the best day! Change is a wonderful thing!

Three Score and Ten or more said...

I can only hope it turns out to be one of the best days. You have posed such positivity about the man for a long while. better now than later.

Homo Escapeons said...

You HATE days like that when you're there.
You LOVE days like that when you realise what a gift it was with the 'miracle of hindsight.'

I hope you get through it OK with a few good friends.

An unchained heart is a beautiful thing.

Mr. Althouse said...

It'll be all right. You'll get through it and be better off for the experience - and you are way to positive to believe otherwise!


Horace Jeffery Hodges said...

I'm sorry to hear of this, Saur, whatever it was. I hope that you get through the emotionally rough times that will come.

Broken relationships, even if best broken, also break something within us.

Jeffery Hodges

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Saur♥Kraut said...

Mike, *hugs*

Homo Escapeons, welcome to the blog and thank you!

3 Score & 10, yes. My parents are finally so relieved its over. They asked me nervously if there was any chance I'd take him back. Happily, there is not a chance at all.

Nihilistic, "the only thing constant is change"

Miss C, thank you. I'm so glad I had blogging and ways to reach out to others. I am so grateful blogging brought me to people like you.

Brianne, thank you, sweetie. I appreciate the support. It's wonderful when those you've supported can now help support you.

Tai, thank you very much, and welcome to the blog!

Saur♥Kraut said...

Horace, well put. Thankfully, this has been a long time coming. So the breakage is minimal because it's been over a period of time.

Mr. Fabulous said...

Wow, I was floored by this. I don't know why I was, but I was.

I love your positive outlook on it, and your plan to seek counseling. Frankly, I have always considered you one of the more soulful and centered people in our little blogging world, and so I am sure that when you come out at the end of this life will be so much better.

We're here for you!

michelle said...

You know where I am!!

R2K said...

Can I give you a rose?


AQ said...

I'm sorry it ended up this way, but glad for you that you finally have your answer. I hope you can somehow continue your relationship with your "daughter."

May God give you peace.

Edge said...

One less guy to check off the list. Sorry to hear it. It's killing me to know what he did.


Scott said...

Good for you for following your instinct and I hope that you are doing okay.


Ellen said...

Once again, your survivor skills will raise up to their familiar calling and see you through this. Good for you to have your head in the right place about your decision because it's never easy.

As for the gut feelings.... you are 100% right. There's a reason you have them, and if we all only pay attention long enough, they teach us more than our heart does.

Good luck, best wishes... and we all know you'll pull through just fine, because you ARE a strong person.


Reverberate58 said...

My curiousity is aroused! I am happy for you in that you are taking this so positive and nothing wrong with a good counseling! Take care and keep us all in mind when you need a shoulder to cry on! We are here and we care. I know I do!

BarbaraFromCalifornia said...

Love your positive attitude, Saur.

I imagine your own emotions will unfold over the next few days and you will see whether it was a good day or not.

Be well.

Jenn said...

Sorry to hear about your situation being so bad... good that you're able to move on.

Some Random Girl said...

awwww, come on! Give us something to go on! another woman? another man?

michelle said...

Hello everyone!

Just wanted to let you know Saur will be out for a bit. Things are a bit hectic and crazy, not good. She will be back as soon as possible so hang in there and bare with her.

I know there is some curiosity, but please realize that Saur will tell you if and when she feels she can. In the mean time supportive words of encouragement are needed and appreciated.


mckay said...

Saur, i'm glad you found out about the slime before he caused your family too much damage. it's very lucky you found out, as sometimes ignorance is not bliss. the pain you'll be dealing with will be real, but trust me, it's so much better than living in the presence of a dangerous person.

i hope all will be well. i'll keep you and your saurkid in my prayers.


Fred said...

Sorry that it didn't work out, Saur. So glad you found out now, not later, though.

The Lazy Iguana said...

Parents can be crazy, but they can also be correct. If they are glad you ditched the dude - then maybe that is enough. I just hope that whatever it was that he did was not so horrible that he should be put on trial, added to a sex offender list, and locked up for a decade or two.

meemaw2 said...

I'm so sorry that things worked out this way....wishing you the best and all the encouragment to continue being positive and focused. However, do allow yourself time to mourn the loss of this relationship. Best wishes

Senor Caiman said...


Are you just coming up with this weird stuff to compete with my blog?

Saur all men have an ugly streak. I'm not perfect even though many say I am with my shirt on.

I hope things work out for you and your son.

michelle said...

Talked to Saur today a couple of times. She is very strong and positive. I imagine she will try to pop in tomorrow sometime.


EmmaSometimes said...

Love you Saur!! No words can make it better, although I would like it to be.

You've been served a lump of coal but even under this burden you, Saur can emerge and will have something beautiful from it on the other side.

Be well my friend!

KristieD said...

welll, i feel for you girl. Altho, you do seem to have a rather positive outlook and decent grip on things, i still send my hugs to you. I am intensly curious as to what happened, but that is just my nature and i am not going to ask you to divulge any information you dont want to. (i hate being so inquistive by nature-- i want everything explained with full details, it can be frustrating to be that way sometimes :) ) Anyway, Keep positive and keep that outlook you have-- its just a new beginning.

And i totally agree with your thoughts on "gut instincts"-- they usually are right. we should trust them more often, we could probably save ourselves mounds of grief.

kimber the wolfgrrrl said...

Good luck with a sunny future, Saur. Your gut will never lead you astray, and with your positive outlook on this change, you can't go wrong. :)

D-Dub said...

All that is important is you and SaurKid are OK.

Always follow your gut (or heart) it will never lead you astray.

If you need me to drag anybody out back and kick the crap out of them... holler.

Jessica said...

Best wishes.

Heather said...

Sorry you're hurting, Saur. Big Hugs.

Daniel Hoffmann-Gill said...

Been there.

Got the scars.

Let yourself get angry and nasty, let yourself go.

Love to you.

Mike said...

Good luck with the future...and the future has got to be better off without him it sounds like.

Ted said...

I speak for all your fans when I say, "grant Saur peace in this storm and 3 fold blessing in the future"

You know where to go for peace don't you? You know the favor of God and your incredible worth to Him and us. I hope I don't sound like a preachers parrot.

We are very fond of you

Badoozie said...

dang girl. i'm behind on my blogging and i just saw this. i'm sorry to say, i'm not altogether surprised. i have learned the hard way, that pretty much nothing surprises me anymore about humans.

Kathleen said...

I am so sorry, Saur. I am happy to see you taking the high road and moving on with your son. I hope you take the time you need. I am glad you will not be wasting any more time on this relationship.

Love to you and SaurKid.

Notsocranky Yankee said...

Hang in there!

Liquidplastic said...

Oh Saur I am so sorry you are in pain -- you are such a good soul. You hang in there and my prayers are with you and the family.

Much love dear one.

Lucy Stern said...

Saur, It is both the best day and the worst day. Glad you found out and can pick up your life and run with it. I wish you well.

green said...


Haven't been to your blog in a few weeks.... sorry to hear about the end of your relationship, even though I know you were looking for a way out.

These endings are always bad - but good results usually come from them. Especially when you discover, amongst other things, strength you didn't know (or forgot) you had.

Whatever he did, I'm glad you found out and did what you needed to do for both you and your son, so you can move on with your life.

Hang in there and God Bless.